We have some amazing things happening. Every day we are getting closer to building our dream house on our dream land where our dream ducks already live. I took this picture of the sunset on Saturday night from the dock. Pretty blessed, right?
In the midst of all this dream building, however, have been some pretty terrible times. My Uncle who I adored passed away unexpectedly, my husband is recovering from back surgery, and my work circumstances have changed. There are so many layers involved in the whole work deal that navigating the depths of that experience alone is exhausting. So, it's much less dealing with the rain and you then you get a rainbow, and more like eating a few bites of brownie and then having to choke down some pickled beets. All at the same time. Yep, I hate beets. No good come from those.
Trying to just emotionally deal with all this stuff whilst living in a 900 sq ft A frame with all these kids and all these dogs, as well as my recovering back patient has often felt like the wave is all on top of me and I'm searching for the surface. Honestly, I am relieved to have the house to focus on because it gives me something to set my eyes on while all of this is happening around me. Sometimes I feel a bit like Nero fiddling while Rome burns and I definitely see the appeal.
As a result, my prayers this week will revolve around trust and rest. My rest patterns are horrific right now. I'm lucky to sleep 3 straight hours. I've decided even when I can't sleep, I'm going to consciously rest in God. The knowing that He has this. Allowing Him to deal with the details, the fall out, all of it. Trusting I don't need to run around trying to fix all of this, but this is one of those times it is important to just be, to just Stand. Will you Stand with me today? Whisper a prayer for me if you have a moment, and I will for each of you dear readers.
Smooches and Shakes,